hope i can be able to go for 2-1'o7 CG this sat ... its oso a farewell for Mrs Chua ! its tuesday already but there's still quite a lot of scaps not yet drop .. few haven fully dried lar ! anw .. its going to be 2.30 soon .. band pracs starts at 2.30 ... wonder how many are going to show up ... haha .. i want go band ! i miss playing the instrument ! and i asked msthia abt the band practices for btbb .. sad case lar .. every monday wednesday and friday .. ! 8amto 1pm .. i hope i can go for few .. coz maybe going to have quite alot of band pracs for jsb during the hols ..T.T... coz need alot of time if the concert with evg is really up ... but pray hard the proposal is going to be a success ..19thmayhad meeting with a few sec 3s .. but still its was no use .. onli a few dared to give suggestions .. they didnt oppose anything .. they just followed wadever we were saying .. hais ... anw ... played maple after that .. lvled ! :] ... watched tv till 12 ... den watch sis play pacman .. hhaas .. den go do sudoku b4 slping .. sian .. this 10days++ i've been slping so late like really late .. wonder if i can wake up to go sch udring hols early anot .. i scared late .. hah .. i mean for band lor .. hhaas ...
***** ... what if one day i'm dead? will you be happy cause i wont be bothering you no more? will you still say that you have never loved me like you did on 23rd december 2008? would you still be that cruel to say that even if i'm dead? or am i already considered a dead person to you? i'm scared ... scared that you would not even remember me after i'm dead ... not even as a friend? wonder if you will be going along with sqps if my band really do have an outreach programme with them ... if you are really following them...i wonder what will happen when we two see each other ... i'm sure bound to see you no matter what ... unless batch decides to not call sqps to come for the outreach .. hais .. all i've said here is just useless ... cause i doubt you would even bother to come here ... you even block me on msn i guess .. never seen you online .. i now see liangjie online more often than you do ... i dont even dare to ask liangjie how have you been .. cause i guess you would have told him to not bother about whatever i ask him about you ba .. its alright then .. so now .. i shall say .. its time i let go ... but its difficult .. so from now on .. I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I SHALL NEVER TALK ABOUT YOU THINK OF YOU ... if we ever meet .. we shall just be strangers .. although i think i've said this many times .. but i guess this would be the last time i'm going to say this ... one last thing to say out.. I REALLY DID LOVE YOU!
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******** ... its also time i've stop being optimistic and think that i have chance to be with you .. its been 2months .. so now .. friends ba ...at least i can talk to you like i did last time le .. just hope that everyone that knows about it would stop saying anything if i ever did talk to him ...
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spare time to walk with me through slowly